Friday, May 15, 2009

A day to mark

At 3 years and 6 months, Ashwin has learnt to FINALLY clear his nose! Hurray!!

It might seem like I am blowing this out of proportion, but I vividly remember the many nights we had to carry him and walk him up and down or put him to sleep on our chest in an upright position because his nose was blocked. The dreaded nose drops and saline decongestant are now a thing of the past. No more use for the nose bulb. Hurray indeed.

Oops! We will relive all of that with Divya... Oh dear, bring them on!!

Falling in love.. once more

During my pregnancy, I never confessed to anyone whose judgement I cared about my one fear about having a second child. But I worried about it almost every day. It was the fear that I could not love another child like I love Ashwin.

My love for Ashwin is total - all the love I am capable of and so I thought I would have none (or at least not enough) left for a second child. The purpose of a second child for me was that Ashwin needs a sibling to grow up with. I did not really think of this as MY CHILD as much as of ASHWIN'S SISTER. There were days when I was consumed by the thought being unfair to the second child who will never get the love Ashwin got from me.

The moment she was born, the first feeling I experienced was relief of not having to push anymore. And then tiredness. I had company for most of the day and since Divya was whisked off to the nursery to stay under the heat most of the time the first day, I had plenty of time to rest. Even during this time, I missed Ashwin and felt inadequate that I wasn't at home to take care of him.

Divya had a feed at about 1am early morning and then the kind nurse offered to take her to the nursery so that I could rest. I accepted.

At 4:30, a nurse wheeled Divya to my room and said she's crying and needs a feed. I thought - Oh my God, there is another being here for whom a basic need can be fulfilled by me and only by me! My heart filled up a little. I scooped her up and placed her in my bed ready to feed her. She looked at me with eyes like that of a playful kitten as if to say, let's spend some time together, the feed can wait. She purred to me in her language and I told her, "I love you", as sincerely as when I tell Ashwin. After the feed, we spent a couple of hours together in bed snuggling with each other and discovering another bond of absolute total love.

I fell in love.. once more..

I can't imagine now what I worried about during all those months!

Thursday, May 14, 2009

Introducing co-star DIVYA RAGHURAMAN

Born in Bentley Hospital on the 28th of April, this cutie pie Divya, alias Missy as Ashwin and I love to call her, has come to share the limelight and enrich our lives beyond what we believe to be possible!

From Welcome_Divya